what do you tell someone you care about that it might not get better?
that the worst case scenario that you can imagine can actually be even worse in reality?
that no matter how much you can mentally prepare, and how much support you have, that you are alone in your suffering? that you have to find your own way through.

i don’t know how. and i don’t want to.

and as VITALLY IMPORTANT as it is to remain optimistic, and to hang onto the light, and to embrace simple joys. to hear this from someone else just sounds like a band-aid solution. empty words from someone who couldn’t even begin to understand. even though it’s the truth.

these are all things you need to learn on your own.