coachella: i’ve never been. i really, really, really want to go (this is a borderline NEED). arcade fire, kanye, daft punk, bright eyes, mumford & sons, robyn, chromeo, the black keys, broken social scene, menomena…you get the idea. i have friends who have gone before, and i have friends who are going again. i might kill me to know that they’re there and i’m not.

it also lands in the middle of some of my last exams. it’s also probably going to run me close to $2000 once i factor in ticket, plane, transportation, food, alcohol, accommodations, merch, etc.

but can you put a price on amazing music and memories? i have a hard time doing that. even if it’s half of my life savings. even if i’m mere months away from having to start my life, get a job, find an apartment, and start paying back tens of thousands of dollars worth of debt.

fuck common sense. i really want to go.

macbook: i’ve sworn for years that my next laptop will be a macbook. i trust the word of dedicated mac-users everywhere and rarely see that kind of loyalty out of pc users. when it comes to technology, i crave modern. i want long lasting battery, as few wires as possible, speed, clarity, trendy software, and as little clutter as possible. more, and more, it seems like mac is taking over, and i don’t want to invest in a pc laptop, only to find myself obsolete in a few years. so, yeah…they’re trendy. i’m willing to jump on the bandwagon and try one out.

i’m looking at about $1200 (maybe extra if i splurge for the warantees, and a larger hard drive). this would be a long-term investment providing me more than a weekend’s worth of gratification. it would be a wonderful grad present to myself, as i prepare to enter the workforce. and if you’ve ever seen my current laptop…you’d know that i’m long overdue for a new one. my wireless card is starting to crap out on me, it’s brain is so small that i can’t fit my music collection on it, my operating system is prehistoric, there’s random pieces snapped off, or in the process of breaking off, it has absolutely zero battery life, the mic doesn’t work, the speakers are half blown, it’s heavy, and it heats up so much that i fear the radiation might be making me infertile.

i can just see it…i dish out the two grand, go to coachella, have the time of my life, come back, and my computer quits on me once and for all…karma’s a bitch like that. it’s just my kind of luck.

or maybe, god forbid, i could resist the urge to go to coachella, i could resist the urge to spend obscene amounts of money on a macbook, and i could just try to SAVE MY MONEY for once. i could appreciate the fact, that my laptop does technically still work, and i could buy another pc for half the price of a mac when it does eventually quit on me. i could keep in mind that osap want their money back (with interest), moving the city doesn’t come cheap, and that in a few months i will be nothing more than a waitress. this would be the most practical option. it is also the most unlikely.

man, how much do i hate being poor?! there’s things i want to see, there’s places i want to go, and there are things i want to have. i absolutely hate being controlled by money.